I’ve applied for some local jobs. Please pray that if I can’t go to Ga for the summer, that I will be able to get a job that WON’T make me sicker. I’ve put three “Don’t apply if” things on my list: 1) it is a foodservice, 2) I will be forced into any kind of olfactory onslaught, 3) the lighting and set up of the location is not easy on my body during a normal length of time in the store. If I can’t handle 30-90 minutes in any certain store without having symptoms flare then there is no way I can consider working there. Obviously the environment would make me sicker. It is amazing how much this list of 3 don’ts takes away. No restaurants, no walmart or similar locations, and no clothing/perfume type store. This leaves very few options at all. Still I have applied to 5 places…am hoping to turn in the 6th application today, and pick up apps for 2 more places.
I absolutely have to earn some money if I want to do anything. I’ve come up with a budget idea for how to use any money I earn. My plan is that 50% of my total income will go into long term savings for the larger Lyme purchases, like a hyperbaric chamber, a rife machine, a sauna, perhaps a BioMat. Heck I also need to consider saving for a CAR….which comes first??? Such a challenge. And I am bound and determined never to rely on the government, whose job it IS NOT to provide. Some will say I’m just making things harder on myself. So be it, I won’t be a slave to the government by accepting their “benefits.” I do believe God will bless me for this resolution and staying fast to it.
Thankfully having had some decent sleep for close to 2 weeks, I feel sane enough to make some decisions for myself. As long as I can sleep well, I can manage as long as it takes to get the resources to go to Ga and get all the way better. When one is sleep deprived as I had been for 5 weeks, one’s judgement become quite impaired, and feels sooooo extraordinarily lost and desperate. Frankly, I feel embarassed for how desperate I had become…I can only hope that those who heard my desperate pleas can understand. The determination of “I WILL NOT GIVE UP”, the refusal to give up hope, is the essence of those pleas; and I hope that this is obvious to those who heard it as well.
This Thursday I get to go up to Appomattox to visit my best friend of 5 years, Jessica. I will be spending a week there. Oh what fun!!! Spending some time with the her talking about normal life things (hopefully not too much Lyme!!!), hanging out at Baine’s coffee and bookstore getting some book reading done and listening to some folks who only think they can sing, playing my flute and her playing the piano and likely cracking up when we make mistakes. I’ll likely get to drink some lovely raw juices that Jess’s mom makes, takes some walks in the woods and in downtown, hanging out with the homeschool academy and so on. 🙂 And spending one day with my other friend there…Desi. So I’m very happy about this upcoming vacation. I just have to be good and refuse to eat sweets — how is that anywhere near easy when these folks are like 75% ITALIAN??? — and not drink any coffee. If I can just be good then I likely will get better while I’m there, not sicker.
I’ve been basically staying on protocol. I can’t remember exactly how to stagger the doses of what I’m on, and have bene bad about writing in my daily med/sx journal. Very bad about that. LOL. So I think it’s gotten a little shifted by a day or two. That’s okay isn’t it? I wasn’t expecting it and neither was the Lyme. Perhaps it’s good in the long run. Also, having fillings put in some ancient cavities yesterday kind of makes things feel off kilter. I had a slight reaction to the lidocaine: the numbing lasted from 2:40pm till 6:00 pm solid… (the dentist was expecting it to be semi wearing off by the time he was done with me, about 45 minutes after numbing me?) and I felt shaky inside when I was standing or when I was trying to concentrate on anything. My hand had a mild-moderate obvious tremor for about 2 hours. Last night I had a brain headache…not sure if that was related or not, as I haven’t had one quite like that in several months. I’m just happy to have half my teeth fixed–and it’s resin not mercury being used, so I’m happy about that! LOL, we’ll get the next side done in a week or two. Let’s hope the lidocaine won’t do anything more than it did yesterday.
On to SwagBucks! I’ve started using swagbucks for my normal would-be-google internet searches, and I’m earning SwagBucks every day. I’m currently making about 100 SB a week…and in one month I can earn enough SB to trade in for a $5 Amazon gift card. There a bunch of stuff you can buy using SB, but I liek the Amazon gift card the most! I buy books and supplements from amazon.com as they sometimes have the lowest prices. 🙂 So hey!!! that makes me happy. If you are interested in doing SwagBucks searches it would help me out alot and cost you nothing if you were to get started by using my referral link: http://www.swagbucks.com/refer/KcSmith I think I’m an official swaggernaut now, LOL!!!
I want to do some nice organizing in my room. I have an old chiropractor’s table that I want to get put up there since the rolly thingy feels SOOOO good!!! Also want to make myself a nice hempshake for lunch. YUM.
K.C.'s Lyme Journey 