Lymie To-Do List
1. Get up
2. Survive
3. Go back to bed.
I changed my FB profile picture to this list…It’s really good, LOL. I tried to sleep around midnight….but like it has been lately such torture. This time I couldn’t bear it anymore after 40 minutes. In trying to close my eyes…my headache got worse. Instead of pressure and weight down the middle of my head, I felt like an axe had been driven in down the center to the deep middle of my brain. And tingling at the crown of my head, little zaps. Strange, I know. I couldn’t handle it, I was in tears so quickly that it was ridiculous. So I got up and cracked my laptop back open. The pain I’d had all day relented for about an hour…2-3 am. I’m still feeling more mentally alert, the headache is still there but its not as bad. And I want to take advantage of the moment and get my school papers done. Notice I’m writing in paragraphs and complete sentences again. One paper is closer to done; the other, well, please pray??
I’ve been tempted to switch to the zombie shift…as the human shift obviously isn’t working out. I get the best rest in an afternoon nap! So why not make that my “night?”, at least for a while. I have to survive. I feel like I’m gonna die if I keep trying to do the “human” shift.
Yesterday I got up at 9:30 and got my little lemon drink together and got to school. I was in time for class, but felt like crap. Thankfully not as bad as Tuesday…but that may be because everyine in the class weren’t all talking! Then there was a test in my next class. Ugh, had to leave my phone up front, with everybody else…It still smell like 20 women’s perfume! Spike my headache, why don’t ya?? I went home, I ate, and I went to take a nap. A package had arrived so I spent probably an hour skimming the book I got, “Healing Lyme” by Buhner. Yeah, I finally caved and now own all the Lyme books I can afford. LOL. Can’t wait to read them!! Anyway then I laid down and slept for TWO hours!! 🙂 It was lovely sleep. Then I got up and got my internet connected and checked email and FB…hadn’t done that all day. It was now 5pm…
At 5:30 I was over babysitting for my friend. My headache had begun to roar…but I still have a high tolerance for headaches thanks to the one I basically had for years! LOL. Still not fun. I got home about 10pm, and wanted to watch the last half of Food, Inc. but PBS had already pulled it from their server 😦 . Oh well… So I chatted with Jessica and my Lymies and then went bed about midnight. Now you know my day.
I’m sitting here…It’s now 6:30am, WP is wrong…need to fix that. I still have mental energy, but I’m not feling so godo as I did at 2:30! Not sure whether to go to bed…or stay up and just focus on surviving 6 more hours awake, get something done. Or I might not get anything done, I feel my function going down as I write. I can do input apparently. Output, not so great. I’ll sleep probably 2-3 hours, then get up go to school come back and go to bed. Then if I could a full night’s worth of sleep in during the day. I can feel decent at night and get my schoolwork done. Heck if it’s warm tomorrow (more like in a few hours!), I’ll take a sleeping bag outside and lay down on the empty part of the garden. I need outside time…outside air.
Eh goodnight…morning, whatever. I’m on the zombie shift now. LOL. Yeah, survival is what it’s all about. Have fun. I hope this zombie shift doesn’t last for long. I’ve never given in to something quite this bad, ever. But it’s been 3 weeks. Gotta change something.
Hoping to go to Appomattox to be with my friend Jess for a week…and then hopefully Ga will happen in June. We’ll see. Once again..in no state to be trying to get my driver’s license. But God can provide, I have to be content to accept either way, NC or Ga…. 🙂